I am sorry to hear about your recent car accident, how it has left you in pain and temporarily unable to do many of the things that you love. As someone who has dealt with a disability their whole life, I understand how frustrating things can be. I know how it feels to be isolated and left out.
I understand that frustration can often lead us to contemplate suicide (MAID) or self-harm, but I also know that if circumstances were different and things were going well, this would not be something that you would be considering. When I have contemplated suicide, the four areas of struggle for me have been faith, hope, peace and purpose. When I am in these situations, it is a struggle to think positively. Yet, in every situation, there are eventually good things waiting, just around the corner.